Message #43495

[BlackRain]

His response to my most previous comment.

'Thank you.

I used to be one of those people grasping at any semblance of ephemeral happiness. Going through life hoping that people would see how smart I was and what I could do.

I realized, in high school, that nobody cares about how many kids I outwitted, what grades I got, how many kids I fought.

I was living life like a video game character, on a set path with basic happiness that came from accomplished goals.

I realized that I was missing opportunities to live my life for the opportunities of the future.

At that moment I steeled my heart, and delved into the depths of my soul.

I searched for who I truly was, and it took me a few hours.

I emerged.

My soul is terrifying.

I realize that the only empathy I have towards people is those who cannot help themselves, children, physically or developmentally disabled people. Everyone else can do something about it.

I resolved to feel every emotion I was feeling, to its maximum.

The depths of my despair had no limits, I traversed the Seven hundred and seventy seven layers of the Abyss alone. Tortured by regret and my mistakes. Shackled down by Daemons of my own creation.

The heights of my joy created an eternal staircase, happiness without bounds, glee and pure ecstasy throughout my entire being. Every little fibre.

My rage consumed everything around me, blood boiling, antipathy, hatred, murderous intent.

I recognize each emotion as my own, I know how to control and deal with it because I have experienced it fully.

I am not afraid of what will happen or what I might do, because I have already done so, many times.

I am in complete control of the entity that is ME, and I logically solve problems that appear in my life.

However, there are moments when opportunity arrives and I say **** IT! Lets go!

I put myself into awkward situations where I know absolutely nobody and I make friends, I am a social captain jack sparrow, exuding confidence from my pores, and extending an aura of fun.

People want to be around me because I am having fun... being me. When you have fun being yourself, people are drawn to you, like ants to sugar. They want a piece of the fun, they want to bask in the light source, the lighthouse on the rock, a ray of sunshine that pierces through the night.

I love being me.

There is so much I have yet to discover about myself.

And I have no intention of stopping.'

Sounds a lot like us, aye? :D