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Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: March 11, 2011, 06:02:00 am »

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there are only a few ways to fail in this path:
1) Commit suicide, because that intervenes with the plans of your true self.
2) Attempt to shun, destroy and ignore your true self.

The whole goal is to learn the ability to silence your mind of all chaotic thoughts, so that you could listen directly to your true self, who is pulling the strings of the world. That's the whole point of the path, not worshiping some altar of a black dragon.

Only way to learn this is to discipline your mind, build your willpower and your awareness. Meditation is key in this. Zen is best (though it is difficult finding a temple in Europe).

Everything else is secondary.

Posted by: Sir Modemkill, Cyborg!

« on: March 10, 2011, 03:48:11 pm »

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Hmm....

Interesting...Vora never fails to amaze me with his knowledge of life.

The middle ground eh...

I've been shunning everyone, especially recently...should I let others in?

Though...I have so many mental walls separating the outside world from myself..me, in my dark, lonely, isolated world, standing alone. I don't think I even know how to interact with people anymore.

It's been so long...I can't remember the last time I felt any of the emotions.

Heh..This must be what it feels like to be dead...it feels....good.

....

Have I really strayed from the path of the Dragon? have I failed?

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 22, 2011, 04:39:08 am »

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but the year barely started, Mustang

Thanks for the commentary

Posted by: Mustang MKIII

« on: February 21, 2011, 07:21:13 am »

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This was the most enlightening thing I've read this year.

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 07:42:53 pm »

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if that's what you percieve, Patrick, then be my guest: be the companion of the Dragon's Will.

It really is confusing. Usually takes me 3-4 months to understand what our conversation was about.

It'll come with time

Posted by: TRHeadshot

« on: February 20, 2011, 12:21:37 pm »

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One of my personal beliefs in life is reflected within the Fangs. I believe that life is always better when you find others willing to spend it with you. You must always enjoy the periods of your life when you are alone, as loneliness can be a virtue, and you must never let others take over your reason for living. Mutuality is something to be appreciated, in my views. I've always seen myself, as a companion- or counterpart - to the Dragon Spirit, as the Will and Rage of Fenrir flows through my veins.

Posted by: Superchaos2585

« on: February 20, 2011, 12:15:02 pm »

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Hmm. I'd like to talk to Vora again at some point. It's been too long.

Very good Igor.

Posted by: TRHeadshot

« on: February 20, 2011, 12:11:18 pm »

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I'm so confused, everything sounds so... contrary... and yet.... the underlying message.... aghhhh....

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 11:40:48 am »

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feel like you have more questions?

I'll try answering them, but Vorax would be better at it.

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 11:39:18 am »

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Part 3b

16.02.2011 21:37:38 Игорь Vorakull could you suggest me a new technique? Tantra no longer suits me, as my imagination has ceased to amuse me
16.02.2011 21:37:40 Vorakull Игорь to develop the ability to turn on and off our voices and other systems
16.02.2011 21:37:49 Vorakull Игорь Zen
16.02.2011 21:37:52 Vorakull Игорь saZen
16.02.2011 21:38:00 Игорь Vorakull where did you learn them?
16.02.2011 21:38:30 Vorakull Игорь from my own master, in old days
16.02.2011 21:38:46 Vorakull Игорь but Ill go to a temple when I return from the coast
16.02.2011 21:39:43 Игорь Vorakull well lucky you
16.02.2011 21:39:52 Игорь Vorakull there are no Zen temples around my vicinitty
16.02.2011 21:39:54 Vorakull Игорь in the meanwhile
16.02.2011 21:39:58 Vorakull Игорь research about it
16.02.2011 21:40:05 Vorakull Игорь read and practice
16.02.2011 21:40:24 Игорь Vorakull it is possible to learn Zen through a book, right?
16.02.2011 21:41:08 Vorakull Игорь at least some basis
16.02.2011 21:41:14 Vorakull Игорь I believe is better than nothing
16.02.2011 21:41:23 Игорь Vorakull at least that is true
16.02.2011 21:41:41 Игорь Vorakull Vorax, thank you for giving me a proper purpose for spending time now
16.02.2011 21:41:54 Vorakull Игорь my pleasure
16.02.2011 21:42:34 Игорь Vorakull honestly, the past months have been a waste of time by asking myself question, like "why was I born?", "What is the meaning of life?" and other non-sense
16.02.2011 21:43:01 Vorakull Игорь its part of the plan you ignore those things
16.02.2011 21:43:11 Игорь Vorakull I only now understand that
16.02.2011 21:44:09 Vorakull Игорь try not to distract your mind so much, channel your impulses to production or creativity
16.02.2011 21:44:45 Игорь Vorakull even though those impulses are sporadic?
16.02.2011 21:45:54 Vorakull Игорь discipline yourself to be above non programmed impulses
16.02.2011 21:46:23 Игорь Vorakull and how do you tell the difference between a non-programmed and programmed impulse?
16.02.2011 21:46:33 Vorakull Игорь program your possible reactions to extreme circumstances and reserve your energy on diary situations
16.02.2011 21:47:00 Vorakull Игорь because you are aware of your programmed impulses
16.02.2011 21:47:19 Vorakull Игорь you visualize them before doing them, thats the point on programming one self
16.02.2011 21:47:36 Игорь Vorakull you mean trying to understand how I will react under a certain situation?
16.02.2011 21:48:34 Vorakull Игорь not merely understand, but research thew best possible reaction and train it
16.02.2011 21:48:50 Игорь Vorakull and that's discipline?
16.02.2011 21:49:00 Vorakull Игорь its what training represents for your body
16.02.2011 21:49:03 Vorakull Игорь but for the mind
16.02.2011 21:49:24 Игорь Vorakull you know, you should write a **** bible or something for studying the Dragon way, you know that?
16.02.2011 21:50:13 Vorakull Игорь discipline is the acquirement of habits
16.02.2011 21:50:30 Vorakull Игорь mmm, probably, sadly, I dont have the time
16.02.2011 21:50:36 Игорь Vorakull sadly indeed
16.02.2011 21:50:54 Vorakull Игорь thats why I would like to rely on you
16.02.2011 21:51:04 Игорь Vorakull you want me to write the Dragon bible?
16.02.2011 21:51:19 Vorakull Игорь thats what we were doing while writing the story
16.02.2011 21:51:22 Vorakull Игорь in a way
16.02.2011 21:51:27 Игорь Vorakull oh
16.02.2011 21:51:37 Игорь Vorakull well then
16.02.2011 21:51:57 Игорь Vorakull I do hope for you to get your own PC soon, along with internet, so we could resume the writing
16.02.2011 21:52:13 Vorakull Игорь of course, thats my wish too
16.02.2011 21:52:37 Игорь Vorakull very well
16.02.2011 21:52:46 Игорь Vorakull oh
16.02.2011 21:52:48 Игорь Vorakull almost forgot
16.02.2011 21:53:35 Игорь Vorakull I re-re-sent Hobo's diary, which involved some romantic bullshit about Hobo's relationship with your cousin. I personally stopped believing in the concepts of romance, so if you wish, we can have that part completely removed
16.02.2011 21:53:55 Vorakull Игорь mmm
16.02.2011 21:54:40 Vorakull Игорь let me read everything when find myself with some time in my hands, and then I will give you my opinion
16.02.2011 21:54:48 Игорь Vorakull understood
16.02.2011 21:54:48 Vorakull Игорь alright?
16.02.2011 21:54:52 Игорь Vorakull sure
16.02.2011 21:55:10 Игорь Vorakull I was just under a flow of false beliefs about the existance of true love
16.02.2011 21:55:44 Vorakull Игорь true love never focus on specifics
16.02.2011 21:55:48 Vorakull Игорь is universal
16.02.2011 21:55:59 Vorakull Игорь and you can feel it for yourself
16.02.2011 21:56:18 Игорь Vorakull true love can't be focused only on one person? it's something more vast?
16.02.2011 21:56:44 Vorakull Игорь love for one person is always delusional
16.02.2011 21:56:59 Vorakull Игорь true love dont let anything out
16.02.2011 21:57:08 Vorakull Игорь because you are what you conceive
16.02.2011 21:57:22 Vorakull Игорь if you conceive something, and you dont love it
16.02.2011 21:57:29 Vorakull Игорь youre not loving a part of yourself
16.02.2011 21:57:34 Vorakull Игорь the part that conceives it
16.02.2011 21:57:47 Vorakull Игорь true love is a state
16.02.2011 21:57:53 Игорь Vorakull that I figured
16.02.2011 21:58:02 Игорь Vorakull though I get the feeling it is not a constant state
16.02.2011 21:58:10 Vorakull Игорь could be
16.02.2011 21:58:26 Игорь Vorakull but in our situations is not, right?
16.02.2011 21:58:45 Vorakull Игорь whats our situations?
16.02.2011 21:59:10 Игорь Vorakull we're cold hearted bastards, that can't wait for the zombie apocalypse to start
16.02.2011 21:59:25 Vorakull Игорь quite the contrary
16.02.2011 21:59:25 Игорь Vorakull and we love ourselves to the point of narcisim
16.02.2011 21:59:42 Vorakull Игорь we are extremely sensitive persons
16.02.2011 21:59:52 Vorakull Игорь we love humankind so much
16.02.2011 21:59:56 Игорь Vorakull we hate it?
16.02.2011 22:00:15 Vorakull Игорь we want them to free themselves from this rotten culture and dangerous bodies
16.02.2011 22:00:37 Игорь Vorakull and that's why we want the zed apocalypse?
16.02.2011 22:00:51 Vorakull Игорь the best of being human is the chance of trascend being human
16.02.2011 22:01:01 Vorakull Игорь the zed apocalipse is a simbol
16.02.2011 22:02:19 Игорь Vorakull well, the cultures may be rotten, but I have to admit, I do love Argentinian tango

16.02.2011 22:02:36 Vorakull Игорь hehe
16.02.2011 22:02:41 Vorakull Игорь wait
16.02.2011 22:03:15 Vorakull Игорь http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4f4OaVKsZk
16.02.2011 22:03:43 Игорь Vorakull you do know how to please me
16.02.2011 22:04:46 Vorakull Игорь he talks about a woman he loves who prostitutes herself after he worked for years, being poor, to give her a home
16.02.2011 22:05:10 Vorakull Игорь it express the romance of suicidal feeling
16.02.2011 22:05:32 Vorakull Игорь as most of tangos
16.02.2011 22:06:07 Vorakull Игорь ill translate the lyrics for you one of these days
16.02.2011 22:08:08 Игорь Vorakull thank you
16.02.2011 22:08:18 Игорь Vorakull now I understand, why you say the culture is rotten

16.02.2011 22:08:46 Игорь Vorakull but still lovely
16.02.2011 22:08:59 Vorakull Игорь masses of people sucks
16.02.2011 22:09:18 Vorakull Игорь let me rephrase
16.02.2011 22:09:32 Vorakull Игорь "colectivity sucks, individualism rules"
16.02.2011 22:09:33 Игорь Vorakull better to be individualistic, then to become part of the mass?
16.02.2011 22:09:39 Vorakull Игорь right
16.02.2011 22:09:50 Vorakull Игорь even if you lose everything in the way
16.02.2011 22:10:08 Игорь Vorakull and how do you deal with the burden of loneliness?
16.02.2011 22:11:12 Vorakull Игорь not feeling anything diferent to lonelines with any partnership
16.02.2011 22:11:25 Vorakull Игорь Im not sure if I express myself well
16.02.2011 22:11:27 Vorakull Игорь enough
16.02.2011 22:11:33 Игорь Vorakull yes, I did not qutie understand
16.02.2011 22:12:09 Vorakull Игорь feeling the same when even when youre alone or not
16.02.2011 22:12:19 Vorakull Игорь being alone even with a lover or with friends
16.02.2011 22:12:27 Игорь Vorakull that's the whole solution?
16.02.2011 22:12:35 Vorakull Игорь of course
16.02.2011 22:12:45 Vorakull Игорь accept your loneliness, treasure it
16.02.2011 22:12:47 Vorakull Игорь fight for it
16.02.2011 22:12:55 Vorakull Игорь dont let them take it away from you
16.02.2011 22:12:59 Vorakull Игорь is everything you got
16.02.2011 22:13:03 Игорь Vorakull when I am completely alone, I act bizare, sing out loud songs, talk to myself out loud. that's what I should be like with other people around me?
16.02.2011 22:13:33 Vorakull Игорь no, but good question
16.02.2011 22:13:39 Vorakull Игорь you must feel the same
16.02.2011 22:13:44 Vorakull Игорь freedom of creativity
16.02.2011 22:13:45 Игорь Vorakull but not act the same?
16.02.2011 22:13:59 Vorakull Игорь always act according your interest
16.02.2011 22:14:11 Игорь Vorakull but always feel as if being alone?
16.02.2011 22:14:17 Vorakull Игорь mix technic with innocence and youll be fine
16.02.2011 22:14:22 Vorakull Игорь indeed
16.02.2011 22:14:34 Игорь Vorakull well, atleast that problem is out of the way
16.02.2011 22:14:56 Игорь Vorakull because I did attempt suicide a month ago because of this feeling of loneliness
16.02.2011 22:15:02 Vorakull Игорь learn how innocence is pervert it
16.02.2011 22:15:12 Vorakull Игорь and be innocent anyway
16.02.2011 22:15:21 Игорь Vorakull oh, that's easy
16.02.2011 22:15:37 Vorakull Игорь isnt pleansant?
16.02.2011 22:15:41 Игорь Vorakull sure is
16.02.2011 22:15:53 Игорь Vorakull and I just love the way people react to it
16.02.2011 22:15:54 Vorakull Игорь you still have a world o sensualism to uncover for yourself
16.02.2011 22:16:16 Vorakull Игорь evrything and everyone around are tools for you to explore yourself
16.02.2011 22:16:18 Vorakull Игорь just
16.02.2011 22:16:26 Vorakull Игорь learn how to be useful to others
16.02.2011 22:16:36 Vorakull Игорь so its fair
16.02.2011 22:16:46 Игорь Vorakull and what will happen, if we are unfair?
16.02.2011 22:17:24 Vorakull Игорь there is not a worse judge than ourselves
16.02.2011 22:17:31 Vorakull Игорь our SELVES
16.02.2011 22:17:53 Игорь Vorakull our trueselves will haunt us for being unfair?
16.02.2011 22:18:19 Vorakull Игорь its a way of saying it
16.02.2011 22:18:31 Vorakull Игорь about loneliness
16.02.2011 22:18:38 Vorakull Игорь I recall a phrase
16.02.2011 22:18:53 Vorakull Игорь let me check if I can traslate it without losing its significance
16.02.2011 22:19:01 Игорь Vorakull be my guest
16.02.2011 22:19:08 Vorakull Игорь "poor the one who depends on others to find his pleasure"
16.02.2011 22:19:14 Игорь Vorakull oh
16.02.2011 22:19:22 Игорь Vorakull I heard something similar
16.02.2011 22:19:34 Vorakull Игорь think about it
16.02.2011 22:19:38 Vorakull Игорь on those moments
16.02.2011 22:19:56 Vorakull Игорь you know whats the best moment to laught?
16.02.2011 22:20:13 Игорь Vorakull when it's ironic/funny/you get what you want
16.02.2011 22:20:28 Vorakull Игорь ironic yes
16.02.2011 22:20:28 Игорь Vorakull oh, and when it's about getting the last laugh
16.02.2011 22:20:31 Vorakull Игорь but to the extrteme
16.02.2011 22:20:46 Vorakull Игорь when everything goes absurdly wrong
16.02.2011 22:20:54 Vorakull Игорь when all your plans are destroyed
16.02.2011 22:21:06 Vorakull Игорь when you lose everything
16.02.2011 22:21:18 Vorakull Игорь thats the best moment to laught
16.02.2011 22:21:24 Игорь Vorakull why>
16.02.2011 22:21:25 Игорь Vorakull ?
16.02.2011 22:21:32 Игорь Vorakull wouldn't that be a moment for regrets?
16.02.2011 22:21:41 Vorakull Игорь think about it
16.02.2011 22:21:46 Vorakull Игорь for the same reason
16.02.2011 22:22:20 Vorakull Игорь being serious is the best reaction to triumph and achivements
16.02.2011 22:22:36 Vorakull Игорь avoid being obvious
16.02.2011 22:22:42 Vorakull Игорь dont act for others
16.02.2011 22:22:49 Vorakull Игорь act for yourself
16.02.2011 22:22:58 Vorakull Игорь its your movie, your play
16.02.2011 22:23:02 Игорь Vorakull and what if I want to act for myself by being joyful?
16.02.2011 22:23:13 Vorakull Игорь restrain
16.02.2011 22:23:25 Vorakull Игорь being joyful calls the contrary feeling
16.02.2011 22:23:33 Игорь Vorakull and envy?
16.02.2011 22:23:42 Игорь Vorakull from others
16.02.2011 22:23:50 Vorakull Игорь nurse from the envy from others
16.02.2011 22:24:02 Vorakull Игорь smile for yourself
16.02.2011 22:24:07 Vorakull Игорь with a bit of malice
16.02.2011 22:24:10 Vorakull Игорь and take it as a sign
16.02.2011 22:24:15 Vorakull Игорь youre doing things well
16.02.2011 22:24:28 Игорь Vorakull well that is how I act for most of the time
16.02.2011 22:24:40 Vorakull Игорь then youre doing right
16.02.2011 22:24:46 Игорь Vorakull really?
16.02.2011 22:24:53 Игорь Vorakull I thought I've been doing wrong all these years
16.02.2011 22:25:17 Vorakull Игорь its my opinion
16.02.2011 22:25:36 Vorakull Игорь save this conversations

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 11:39:02 am »

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Part 3a

16.02.2011 21:10:45 Игорь Vorakull isn't it ironic, that my name is crazy hobo, yet I am one of the most docile members?
16.02.2011 21:11:18 Игорь Vorakull while a serious role player is a whacko?
16.02.2011 21:11:54 Vorakull Игорь Im probably the most serious of the roleplayers
16.02.2011 21:12:07 Игорь Vorakull you sure are
16.02.2011 21:12:10 Vorakull Игорь that woud make me King Whacko?
16.02.2011 21:12:12 Игорь Vorakull but your abcent
16.02.2011 21:12:15 Vorakull Игорь probably
16.02.2011 21:12:23 Игорь Vorakull no, I didn't mean to offend
16.02.2011 21:12:30 Vorakull Игорь haha
16.02.2011 21:12:34 Vorakull Игорь I didnt take any offense
16.02.2011 21:12:35 Игорь Vorakull I'm just saying, that a person that acts cool, is actually crazy deep inside
16.02.2011 21:13:03 Vorakull Игорь yes well
16.02.2011 21:13:51 Vorakull Игорь I may believe everyone is crazy, and a cool person may play a bit more with appareances
16.02.2011 21:14:07 Игорь Vorakull also true
16.02.2011 21:14:25 Игорь Vorakull I myself give in to whackiness when in a good mood
16.02.2011 21:16:07 Игорь Vorakull which has been happening a bit too often lately >_>
16.02.2011 21:16:28 Vorakull Игорь thats unusual
16.02.2011 21:16:37 Vorakull Игорь dont panic
16.02.2011 21:16:38 Vorakull Игорь enjoy
16.02.2011 21:16:45 Игорь Vorakull I try
16.02.2011 21:17:02 Игорь Vorakull though I have been subject to drastic mood changes in the recent months
16.02.2011 21:17:30 Игорь Vorakull I even recall one day, when I went from cheerful to suicidal in a matter of hours
16.02.2011 21:18:27 Vorakull Игорь I rememer those times
16.02.2011 21:18:43 Vorakull Игорь Im geting older
16.02.2011 21:18:50 Игорь Vorakull wait, you were thinking about suicide in the past?
16.02.2011 21:19:04 Vorakull Игорь so my madness is refined
16.02.2011 21:19:21 Vorakull Игорь Im maniac-depressive
16.02.2011 21:19:34 Игорь Vorakull isn't that strange?
16.02.2011 21:19:45 Vorakull Игорь my mind is so complex it tortures me
16.02.2011 21:19:55 Игорь Vorakull I always found you to be the most strong willed and inpirational person in the world, yet you were also subject to self hatred?
16.02.2011 21:20:06 Vorakull Игорь of course
16.02.2011 21:20:19 Vorakull Игорь havent you heard about Eros and Thanos?
16.02.2011 21:20:23 Игорь Vorakull no
16.02.2011 21:20:29 Игорь Vorakull not that I recall
16.02.2011 21:20:53 Vorakull Игорь well, those are the greek names for the god of life and the god of death
16.02.2011 21:21:02 Игорь Vorakull that I know
16.02.2011 21:21:10 Игорь Vorakull but I do not know the stories behind them
16.02.2011 21:21:14 Vorakull Игорь from those names derives the words erotic and thanatic
16.02.2011 21:21:26 Игорь Vorakull ok
16.02.2011 21:21:27 Vorakull Игорь (research)
16.02.2011 21:21:30 Vorakull Игорь anyway
16.02.2011 21:21:47 Vorakull Игорь the more intense one of those tendecies is
16.02.2011 21:22:06 Vorakull Игорь the more it sinercly nurses the other
16.02.2011 21:22:52 Игорь Vorakull and what does this have to do with hating oneself?
16.02.2011 21:23:10 Vorakull Игорь I thought it was obvious
16.02.2011 21:23:17 Vorakull Игорь I dont hate myself
16.02.2011 21:23:21 Vorakull Игорь I love myself
16.02.2011 21:23:30 Vorakull Игорь but I hate to be incarnated as human
16.02.2011 21:23:33 Vorakull Игорь I hate humankind
16.02.2011 21:23:39 Игорь Vorakull oh
16.02.2011 21:23:45 Игорь Vorakull so that's how it is?
16.02.2011 21:23:58 Vorakull Игорь Im waiting the zombies
16.02.2011 21:24:07 Vorakull Игорь I just want to be one of the last
16.02.2011 21:24:16 Vorakull Игорь to witness how everything dissapear
16.02.2011 21:24:32 Игорь Vorakull for what purpose?
16.02.2011 21:24:34 Vorakull Игорь my highest hope is extinction
16.02.2011 21:24:42 Игорь Vorakull what do you gain out of it?
16.02.2011 21:24:56 Vorakull Игорь freedom
16.02.2011 21:25:13 Игорь Vorakull and what use is this freedom?
16.02.2011 21:25:35 Vorakull Игорь theres no suffering
16.02.2011 21:25:51 Игорь Vorakull doesn't freemod breed loneliness?
16.02.2011 21:26:01 Игорь Vorakull *freedom
16.02.2011 21:26:35 Vorakull Игорь indeed, but you are still on this material plane point of view
16.02.2011 21:26:51 Vorakull Игорь try to imagine when nobody has a body
16.02.2011 21:27:20 Игорь Vorakull I imagine a floating gray mist
16.02.2011 21:28:07 Vorakull Игорь and your mind as such?
16.02.2011 21:28:13 Игорь Vorakull everywhere?
16.02.2011 21:28:15 Vorakull Игорь a mind with no need of words
16.02.2011 21:28:54 Vorakull Игорь I would never suicide myself
16.02.2011 21:29:01 Vorakull Игорь its the worst sin
16.02.2011 21:29:28 Vorakull Игорь but Im not afraid of dying through my learning route
16.02.2011 21:29:37 Игорь Vorakull but why is it the worst?
16.02.2011 21:30:17 Vorakull Игорь because you are personally interrupting your own "big plan"
16.02.2011 21:30:36 Игорь Vorakull and what if I have no "big plan"?
16.02.2011 21:30:45 Vorakull Игорь not you
16.02.2011 21:30:47 Vorakull Игорь YOU
16.02.2011 21:30:52 Игорь Vorakull ooooooh
16.02.2011 21:30:54 Vorakull Игорь behing you
16.02.2011 21:30:55 Игорь Vorakull the true self?
16.02.2011 21:30:59 Vorakull Игорь exactly
16.02.2011 21:31:05 Игорь Vorakull that's the whole point?
16.02.2011 21:31:29 Игорь Vorakull the true self is puppetering the me-self to do it's bidding?
16.02.2011 21:31:36 Vorakull Игорь right
16.02.2011 21:31:50 Игорь Vorakull and my only way to break free from his will is to kill myself?
16.02.2011 21:32:03 Vorakull Игорь nooooo
16.02.2011 21:32:13 Vorakull Игорь exactly the contrary
16.02.2011 21:32:20 Vorakull Игорь if you kill yourself
16.02.2011 21:32:22 Игорь Vorakull I'm giving in to his will that way?
16.02.2011 21:32:30 Vorakull Игорь your true self wont have choice
16.02.2011 21:32:42 Vorakull Игорь you must empty your self
16.02.2011 21:33:01 Vorakull Игорь to become your real self
16.02.2011 21:33:15 Игорь Vorakull and how do you empty your self?
16.02.2011 21:33:24 Vorakull Игорь he is your maximun potential
16.02.2011 21:33:42 Vorakull Игорь yourself on "angel mode"
16.02.2011 21:34:05 Vorakull Игорь you empty yourself disciplining your mind to silence the voices
16.02.2011 21:34:25 Vorakull Игорь when you hush all the voices in your head
16.02.2011 21:34:32 Vorakull Игорь youll be one with your superself
16.02.2011 21:35:02 Игорь Vorakull I often hear voices of my dreams, of people I find interesting, of girls I want to have sex with. those are the voices, that must be silented?
16.02.2011 21:36:05 Vorakull Игорь those, and your parent voices, and the voices of all the people youve met, and the people you imagine you could met, and the voices that sounds like your own
16.02.2011 21:36:17 Vorakull Игорь your head is a constant chaotic party
16.02.2011 21:36:24 Игорь Vorakull it sure is
16.02.2011 21:36:31 Vorakull Игорь make them hush when you want
16.02.2011 21:36:41 Vorakull Игорь find the interruptor, the switch
16.02.2011 21:36:52 Игорь Vorakull and that's why we must meditate?
16.02.2011 21:37:05 Vorakull Игорь exactly
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Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 11:26:57 am »

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Part 2

27/09/2010 22:40:23 Игорь Vorakull the Archlord?
27/09/2010 22:40:37 Vorakull Игорь who else?
27/09/2010 22:40:49 Игорь Vorakull well, maybe a doppelganger?
27/09/2010 22:41:09 Vorakull Игорь I sent u an email long time ago
27/09/2010 22:41:14 Vorakull Игорь have you received it?
27/09/2010 22:41:28 Игорь Vorakull about what to redo in day 1?
27/09/2010 22:41:41 Vorakull Игорь yes
27/09/2010 22:41:49 Игорь Vorakull yes, that was done long ago
27/09/2010 22:41:56 Vorakull Игорь more than what to redo how to complete it
27/09/2010 22:42:16 Игорь Vorakull yeah, and then after that, things in life got out of control
27/09/2010 22:42:34 Vorakull Игорь how are you now?
27/09/2010 22:42:41 Игорь Vorakull hard to tell
27/09/2010 22:42:50 Игорь Vorakull I quit DF and all things related to it
27/09/2010 22:43:59 Vorakull Игорь are you willing to continue the sttory whenever you are up to?
27/09/2010 22:44:15 Игорь Vorakull sadly, no
27/09/2010 22:44:27 Игорь Vorakull I cant find any motivation to continue writing
27/09/2010 22:45:03 Vorakull Игорь well
27/09/2010 22:45:18 Vorakull Игорь the motivation should be to read the story complete
27/09/2010 22:45:29 Игорь Vorakull honestly, I dont know what happened
27/09/2010 22:45:35 Игорь Vorakull I cant even meditate anymore
27/09/2010 22:47:14 Игорь Vorakull that tantra you tought me. It doesnt work anymore
27/09/2010 22:47:24 Vorakull Игорь it always works
27/09/2010 22:47:31 Vorakull Игорь its your mind playing tricks
27/09/2010 22:48:29 Игорь Vorakull ok then, please educate me, because I feel, like I have gotten stray from the Dragon way >_>
27/09/2010 22:48:54 Vorakull Игорь you are feeling yourself as victim of your enviroment
27/09/2010 22:49:04 Игорь Vorakull exactly
27/09/2010 22:49:15 Vorakull Игорь while you must always have in mind its you who victimize yourself
27/09/2010 22:49:26 Vorakull Игорь exterior factors are always illusory
27/09/2010 22:49:36 Игорь Vorakull I know that, but I cant comprehend that
27/09/2010 22:50:15 Vorakull Игорь when you are willing to admit absolute responsability for all your acts and their consequences, you are ready to control every aspect of your life
27/09/2010 22:50:47 Игорь Vorakull and how do you tell, whether you are willing to admit?
27/09/2010 22:50:50 Vorakull Игорь see it this way, what you think you are is the 10% of what you really are
27/09/2010 22:51:08 Vorakull Игорь the 90% sparing is your subconciousness
27/09/2010 22:51:20 Vorakull Игорь there it resides your super self
27/09/2010 22:51:30 Vorakull Игорь which is immortal and wise
27/09/2010 22:51:46 Vorakull Игорь you are a mere puppet who last less than a second for your true self
27/09/2010 22:51:55 Vorakull Игорь it uses you to learn things he cant by himself
27/09/2010 22:52:14 Vorakull Игорь as He is so much pure, he can interact directly with this material realm
27/09/2010 22:52:17 Игорь Vorakull wait, so must I learn to shape myself into my true self, or must I learn to be it's slave?
27/09/2010 22:52:49 Vorakull Игорь you must learn to empty yourself from worries so he can achieve the mission
27/09/2010 22:52:52 Vorakull Игорь through you
27/09/2010 22:53:04 Vorakull Игорь you are merely the 10% of it
27/09/2010 22:53:11 Vorakull Игорь the rest, is not something apart from you
27/09/2010 22:53:20 Игорь Vorakull it's something hidden?
27/09/2010 22:53:30 Vorakull Игорь you hide it
27/09/2010 22:53:36 Vorakull Игорь you was wiser when you were a child
27/09/2010 22:53:38 Vorakull Игорь but yes
27/09/2010 22:53:41 Vorakull Игорь part of the mission
27/09/2010 22:53:46 Vorakull Игорь is forgeting the objetive
27/09/2010 22:54:05 Vorakull Игорь so you dont avoi or ignore all aspects not directly related to your current mission
27/09/2010 22:54:10 Vorakull Игорь and so, you learn better
27/09/2010 22:54:15 Игорь Vorakull I thought the mission was to eventually move on to the next step of evolution through reincarnation
27/09/2010 22:54:36 Vorakull Игорь you are already there
27/09/2010 22:54:38 Vorakull Игорь already dead
27/09/2010 22:54:45 Vorakull Игорь your life has a meaning
27/09/2010 22:54:49 Vorakull Игорь to earn something specific
27/09/2010 22:55:02 Vorakull Игорь thats why you chosed to born how you did
27/09/2010 22:56:28 Vorakull Игорь read lobsang rampa
27/09/2010 22:56:33 Vorakull Игорь I left a link on the forum
27/09/2010 22:56:34 Игорь Vorakull read the first book
27/09/2010 22:56:39 Vorakull Игорь you liked it?
27/09/2010 22:56:40 Игорь Vorakull already saved the all on my PC
27/09/2010 22:56:50 Игорь Vorakull yes, I adored it. Read the whole thing in one night
27/09/2010 22:56:55 Vorakull Игорь really?
27/09/2010 22:56:59 Игорь Vorakull well, no
27/09/2010 22:57:03 Vorakull Игорь I used to read one every two days
27/09/2010 22:57:06 Игорь Vorakull only the first quarter
27/09/2010 22:57:20 Игорь Vorakull then school started and I forgot about it >_>
27/09/2010 22:57:30 Vorakull Игорь well, read them all
27/09/2010 22:57:46 Vorakull Игорь and dare to practice the exercises he presents
27/09/2010 22:57:51 Игорь Vorakull ok, but then what? I still cant meditate
27/09/2010 22:58:00 Vorakull Игорь dont you worry
27/09/2010 22:58:04 Vorakull Игорь just read those books
27/09/2010 22:58:26 Vorakull Игорь they will gradually guide you to equilibrium
27/09/2010 22:58:51 Игорь Vorakull I do hope so. But sure as hell doesnt sound right to me, to rely on something, other then myself >_>
27/09/2010 22:59:14 Vorakull Игорь its a guide
27/09/2010 22:59:23 Vorakull Игорь nothing artificial
27/09/2010 22:59:32 Игорь Vorakull well, if you put it that way
27/09/2010 22:59:48 Vorakull Игорь it will depend on you, ultimately, what you do with that information
27/09/2010 23:00:02 Игорь Vorakull ok, just one more question
27/09/2010 23:00:38 Игорь Vorakull I have recently discovered, that my emotions occasionally take control of me. Is there any chance those books will help me make it the other way around? If not, what can help my situation?
27/09/2010 23:01:21 Vorakull Игорь those books contains all the information you may require to perform everything you cant now
27/09/2010 23:01:44 Vorakull Игорь I could suggest you several kind of exercises, but I also have to tell you its a process
27/09/2010 23:01:55 Vorakull Игорь start remembering something that makes you really happy
27/09/2010 23:02:07 Vorakull Игорь and remember your gesture and chemistry
27/09/2010 23:02:20 Vorakull Игорь then think on something it makes you sad, or ungry
27/09/2010 23:02:34 Vorakull Игорь but force yourself to use your "happy configuration"
27/09/2010 23:02:46 Vorakull Игорь youll feel a change
27/09/2010 23:02:52 Игорь Vorakull think of good, then switch to bad, while being in the good mood?
27/09/2010 23:02:59 Vorakull Игорь yes
27/09/2010 23:03:02 Vorakull Игорь and then
27/09/2010 23:03:08 Vorakull Игорь when something bad happens to you
27/09/2010 23:03:13 Vorakull Игорь you re activate it
27/09/2010 23:03:34 Vorakull Игорь you simply act as you did on your best moments
27/09/2010 23:03:43 Vorakull Игорь you can also do it backwards
27/09/2010 23:03:52 Игорь Vorakull and what will that result in?
27/09/2010 23:03:54 Vorakull Игорь using your shitty configuration on good moments
27/09/2010 23:04:00 Vorakull Игорь so you achieve a balance
27/09/2010 23:04:22 Vorakull Игорь remember, the wisedom is located at the middle point of every spectre of oposites
27/09/2010 23:04:45 Игорь Vorakull so the ultimate goal is to be cold hearted and cunning?
27/09/2010 23:04:52 Vorakull Игорь something like that
27/09/2010 23:05:13 Vorakull Игорь you will learn to create the perfect contexts to let your feelings get loose
27/09/2010 23:05:17 Vorakull Игорь but never to extremes
27/09/2010 23:05:30 Vorakull Игорь the objetive is to remain calm no matter the external situation
27/09/2010 23:06:03 Игорь Vorakull thank you for the instructions. now the final questions. What happens with the story about Hobo's diary?
27/09/2010 23:06:16 Vorakull Игорь ll see what to do
27/09/2010 23:06:18 Vorakull Игорь Ihave to go now
27/09/2010 23:06:22 Игорь Vorakull so do I
27/09/2010 23:06:27 Vorakull Игорь see ya then
27/09/2010 23:06:31 Игорь Vorakull until next time, V

Posted by: CrazyHobo

« on: February 20, 2011, 11:21:01 am »

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Recently I have been talking with Vorax about writing The Dragon "Bible". Due to time constraints, we are a bit busy with that (Archlord's quest is in fact the Bible we are working on, but we need to put it on hold for now), while I have noticed, that our Agents require more spiritual guidance these days (Won't lie, I tried to commit suicide last month). This leads me to posting the closest thing we have to a Dragon Bible - the journal of my conversations with Vorax.

Part 1

Skipper Vorakull greetings, Archlord
20/07/2010 00:24:24 Vorakull Skipper crazy?
20/07/2010 00:24:30 Skipper Vorakull yep
20/07/2010 00:24:45 Skipper Vorakull changed my name, since Doctor no longer suits me >_>
20/07/2010 00:25:14 Vorakull Skipper you seem to have grownt
20/07/2010 00:25:21 Skipper Vorakull perhaps
20/07/2010 00:25:39 Vorakull Skipper its hard to notice about oneself
20/07/2010 00:25:44 Skipper Vorakull sure is
20/07/2010 00:25:52 Skipper Vorakull which is why I keep diaries
20/07/2010 00:27:20 Skipper Vorakull and I'm still shocked at how drastically I change over the year
20/07/2010 00:27:39 Vorakull Skipper you are at puberty
20/07/2010 00:28:16 Skipper Vorakull still. The period from Autumn to the begining of this summer was a pure stage of decadence
20/07/2010 00:28:32 Vorakull Skipper whys that?
20/07/2010 00:29:23 Skipper Vorakull "**** kept hitting the fan" can be the short term, that doesnt need evaluation. The term "had no one in real life to spend time with, while had a tonn of haters" is longer and may require more evaluation
20/07/2010 00:30:09 Vorakull Skipper nothing happens by chance
20/07/2010 00:30:16 Vorakull Skipper or better stated, by casuality
20/07/2010 00:30:23 Vorakull Skipper all is causality
20/07/2010 00:31:12 Vorakull Skipper everything we are, the conjunction of thoughts, intentions, feelings, is a vibration
20/07/2010 00:31:16 Vorakull Skipper as an ecuation
20/07/2010 00:31:55 Vorakull Skipper that vibration in particular, always changing, constantly moves through reality, with is also vibrations, by rejecting and attracting other vibrations
20/07/2010 00:32:45 Vorakull Skipper so everything that seems to happen to you, and everyone you meet, and all those who youll find feel about you are merely a reflection of yourself
20/07/2010 00:33:09 Vorakull Skipper sometimes having a good imagination causes rejection from outside
20/07/2010 00:33:32 Vorakull Skipper what you can always choose is to damage yourself from the inside or protecting
20/07/2010 00:33:49 Skipper Vorakull sometimes, I dont really feel, like I have a choice
20/07/2010 00:34:16 Vorakull Skipper you always have infinite choices at future, buy only a very few are correct
20/07/2010 00:34:36 Vorakull Skipper and yo have none choice at past, so acept it and use it as information
20/07/2010 00:34:54 Vorakull Skipper you are flowing, be active
20/07/2010 00:35:09 Vorakull Skipper the less you try to change your curse the more youll suffer
20/07/2010 00:35:24 Vorakull Skipper we all have a perfect path to follow
20/07/2010 00:35:34 Vorakull Skipper we just dont listen to our inner guide
20/07/2010 00:35:58 Vorakull Skipper but theres a pure voice trying to make you understand whats the best course of action
20/07/2010 00:36:06 Vorakull Skipper the problem is you cant listen to it
20/07/2010 00:36:24 Vorakull Skipper because its in the middle of thousands of other voices you should learn to shut up
20/07/2010 00:36:32 Skipper Vorakull yeah...I recall, how I confused it with my alter-ego and silenced it
20/07/2010 00:37:26 Vorakull Skipper identify and subjugate all the ghosts voices, those ghosts that represents the impresions others made on you, from parents, teachers, friends, enemies, girls, etc
20/07/2010 00:37:43 Vorakull Skipper kick their asses and put them in a dungeon
20/07/2010 00:37:58 Vorakull Skipper the only voice remaining will be the superior one
20/07/2010 00:38:31 Skipper Vorakull out of curiosity. Is that superio one, by any chance, the Dragon Spirit?
20/07/2010 00:38:52 Vorakull Skipper its linked of course
20/07/2010 00:39:23 Vorakull Skipper its the superself
20/07/2010 00:40:02 Vorakull Skipper the dragon spirit would be an infinite source of energy, of willpower, which nurse the superself of all its followers
20/07/2010 00:40:11 Vorakull Skipper a way to unify all the superselves
20/07/2010 00:40:39 Vorakull Skipper making a clan as if one person
20/07/2010 00:41:05 Vorakull Skipper we are agents of the dragon spirit, manifesting his existence he gives us energy in return
20/07/2010 00:41:32 Skipper Vorakull and that energy fuels willpower, discipline and awareness?
20/07/2010 00:41:38 Vorakull Skipper exactly
20/07/2010 00:41:43 Skipper Vorakull hmm...strange
20/07/2010 00:41:52 Skipper Vorakull I always thought my willpower is fueled by my hatred
20/07/2010 00:42:08 Vorakull Skipper your hate is always toward yourself
20/07/2010 00:42:16 Vorakull Skipper your hate nurse your "shadow"
20/07/2010 00:42:28 Vorakull Skipper like an antiego
20/07/2010 00:42:32 Vorakull Skipper our own demon
20/07/2010 00:42:41 Vorakull Skipper wich destroy us
20/07/2010 00:42:56 Skipper Vorakull somehow, I always thought that demon kept saving me <_<
20/07/2010 00:43:07 Vorakull Skipper never give another person such importance as to hat e him
20/07/2010 00:43:23 Vorakull Skipper that should be a priviledge nobody deserves
20/07/2010 00:43:34 Vorakull Skipper think about this
20/07/2010 00:43:41 Vorakull Skipper if you hate someone
20/07/2010 00:43:52 Vorakull Skipper you are giving that person protagonism in your life
20/07/2010 00:44:15 Skipper Vorakull more antagonism, I would say
20/07/2010 00:44:16 Vorakull Skipper you would be allowing him/her/it to be even more important than you, to yourself
20/07/2010 00:44:24 Vorakull Skipper it doesnt make sense right?
20/07/2010 00:44:33 Skipper Vorakull no it doesnt, though it's true
20/07/2010 00:44:56 Vorakull Skipper you dont need to hate
20/07/2010 00:45:02 Vorakull Skipper hate is cancer
20/07/2010 00:45:22 Vorakull Skipper you only need to reflex about how you allowed something from outside to overcome you
20/07/2010 00:45:34 Vorakull Skipper how weak you still are
20/07/2010 00:45:38 Vorakull Skipper how to solve that
20/07/2010 00:45:52 Vorakull Skipper and how to reckoning
20/07/2010 00:46:01 Skipper Vorakull there's only one problem I see here
20/07/2010 00:46:15 Vorakull Skipper avenge your dignity, but with cold heart and ordered mind
20/07/2010 00:46:47 Skipper Vorakull when I do physical excersices, the only thing driving me to push harder is all the hatred and rage in my mind. When I think of the good things during training, I work less harder
20/07/2010 00:47:14 Vorakull Skipper I never said you need to think on "good things"
20/07/2010 00:47:42 Vorakull Skipper I trying to make you understand the advantages of the "middle way" or "empty mind"
20/07/2010 00:48:04 Vorakull Skipper if you need those thoughts and feelings to excersice
20/07/2010 00:48:13 Vorakull Skipper you are attaching them to what you do
20/07/2010 00:48:16 Vorakull Skipper so you rely on them
20/07/2010 00:48:19 Vorakull Skipper thats wrong
20/07/2010 00:48:26 Vorakull Skipper do it because you can
20/07/2010 00:48:29 Vorakull Skipper thats willpower
20/07/2010 00:49:05 Vorakull Skipper the objetive of exercise shouldnt be neither health, or appareance improvements, nor burning strong emotions
20/07/2010 00:49:15 Vorakull Skipper the objetive of exercising should always be
20/07/2010 00:49:18 Vorakull Skipper exercising per se
20/07/2010 00:49:26 Vorakull Skipper thats discipline
20/07/2010 00:49:37 Vorakull Skipper you do it because you do it
20/07/2010 00:50:03 Vorakull Skipper anything else is a problem, something that shouldnt be
20/07/2010 00:50:03 Skipper Vorakull without enthusiasm?
20/07/2010 00:50:27 Vorakull Skipper you are confusing feelings with enthusiasm
20/07/2010 00:50:33 Vorakull Skipper put enthusiasm into it
20/07/2010 00:50:35 Vorakull Skipper but
20/07/2010 00:50:45 Vorakull Skipper empty your motives
20/07/2010 00:50:48 Vorakull Skipper your reasons
20/07/2010 00:50:52 Skipper Vorakull sorry, wrong button >_>
20/07/2010 00:51:14 Vorakull Skipper you dont need a motive, a reason, to feel enthusiasm about physical excersising
20/07/2010 00:51:34 Vorakull Skipper you dont need mental pictures tu push yourself harder
20/07/2010 00:51:47 Vorakull Skipper you only need to be your own superior
20/07/2010 00:51:57 Vorakull Skipper you should make yourself go forward
20/07/2010 00:52:29 Skipper Vorakull shout to myself "keep going"?
20/07/2010 00:52:36 Vorakull Skipper as an invisible military superior who doesnt allow you to indulge when tired or depressed
20/07/2010 00:52:40 Vorakull Skipper right
20/07/2010 00:52:41 Vorakull Skipper thats all
20/07/2010 00:53:06 Skipper Vorakull makes sense
20/07/2010 00:53:23 Vorakull Skipper ddont rely on inner ****, bad emeories, frustrations ad other negative feelings to push you ofrward
20/07/2010 00:53:24 Skipper Vorakull I work especially hard, when someone's ordering me to work harder
20/07/2010 00:53:31 Vorakull Skipper exactly
20/07/2010 00:53:33 Vorakull Skipper order yourself
20/07/2010 00:53:37 Vorakull Skipper thats the only way
20/07/2010 00:53:46 Vorakull Skipper you will be able to be your own boss in life
20/07/2010 00:53:48 Vorakull Skipper otherwise
20/07/2010 00:53:56 Vorakull Skipper youll always rely on others
20/07/2010 00:54:11 Skipper Vorakull that's how to be a lone wolf?
20/07/2010 00:54:23 Vorakull Skipper the way I see it
20/07/2010 00:54:26 Vorakull Skipper we are all alone
20/07/2010 00:54:28 Vorakull Skipper always
20/07/2010 00:54:32 Vorakull Skipper believing you are not
20/07/2010 00:54:45 Vorakull Skipper is to be trapped in the ilussion
20/07/2010 00:54:57 Vorakull Skipper you dont choose to be alone or not
20/07/2010 00:55:12 Vorakull Skipper you choose to acept it or to evade the awareness
20/07/2010 00:55:23 Vorakull Skipper thats what di ver sion means
20/07/2010 00:55:29 Vorakull Skipper to deflect attention
20/07/2010 00:55:45 Vorakull Skipper accepting you are alone
20/07/2010 00:55:54 Vorakull Skipper is what gives you the caine mark
20/07/2010 00:56:08 Vorakull Skipper what cause fear on those who will not accept their own loneliness
20/07/2010 00:56:21 Skipper Vorakull the mark, that destroys anyone, who attacks the one with the mark?
20/07/2010 00:56:36 Vorakull Skipper but thats what will also attract the kind of persons youll want to meet
20/07/2010 00:56:38 Vorakull Skipper exactly
20/07/2010 00:56:45 Skipper Vorakull so let me get this straight
20/07/2010 00:56:49 Skipper Vorakull we're always alone?
20/07/2010 00:56:54 Skipper Vorakull what about love couples?
20/07/2010 00:57:00 Vorakull Skipper what about it?
20/07/2010 00:57:06 Skipper Vorakull they're also alone?
20/07/2010 00:57:08 Vorakull Skipper is one inside the other?
20/07/2010 00:57:15 Vorakull Skipper are their thoughts and feelings the same?
20/07/2010 00:57:20 Skipper Vorakull sometimes
20/07/2010 00:57:25 Vorakull Skipper or merely compatible for a time?
20/07/2010 00:57:35 Vorakull Skipper is one the other?
20/07/2010 00:57:42 Vorakull Skipper are those two people...one people?
20/07/2010 00:57:53 Skipper Vorakull no...there's a difference between them
20/07/2010 00:57:57 Vorakull Skipper even more important
20/07/2010 00:58:02 Vorakull Skipper when they die
20/07/2010 00:58:11 Vorakull Skipper who is inside that mind
20/07/2010 00:58:13 Vorakull Skipper dying?
20/07/2010 00:58:37 Vorakull Skipper we born and die alone
20/07/2010 00:58:43 Vorakull Skipper its our natural state
20/07/2010 00:58:51 Vorakull Skipper partnership is a distraction
20/07/2010 00:59:02 Vorakull Skipper sometimes the distraction is ok
20/07/2010 00:59:08 Vorakull Skipper because we are here to learn
20/07/2010 00:59:27 Vorakull Skipper but you shouldnt forget it
20/07/2010 00:59:57 Skipper Vorakull being alone, means being unique?
20/07/2010 01:00:13 Vorakull Skipper yes
20/07/2010 01:00:21 Vorakull Skipper thats accurate
20/07/2010 01:00:45 Skipper Vorakull and when a group of people stick together all the time, they're still alone and confuse themselves into thinking they're not?
20/07/2010 01:02:39 Vorakull Skipper yes, they unify their subconciousness into a collectivity, contributing with a promedial mind, giving away the individuality for the duration of mass hystery
20/07/2010 01:02:58 Skipper Vorakull they sacrifice individuality?
20/07/2010 01:03:15 Vorakull Skipper Im personally against merging myself with masses reactions
20/07/2010 01:03:37 Vorakull Skipper yes, by chemist reaction
20/07/2010 01:04:05 Vorakull Skipper the more people claiming the same, the stronger the adrenaline and endorphine rush
20/07/2010 01:04:35 Vorakull Skipper both natural drugs provokes strenght, uninhibition and pleasure
20/07/2010 01:05:04 Vorakull Skipper but it disallows us to react different from the collective subconciouss pulse, and impulse
20/07/2010 01:05:06 Vorakull Skipper you see?
20/07/2010 01:05:27 Skipper Vorakull trying to comprehend this.
20/07/2010 01:05:31 Vorakull Skipper thats what zombies are
20/07/2010 01:05:40 Skipper Vorakull I was about to say that
20/07/2010 01:05:44 Vorakull Skipper one collective subconciousness
20/07/2010 01:05:52 Vorakull Skipper working as one subject
20/07/2010 01:05:58 Vorakull Skipper using each body as an agent
20/07/2010 01:06:06 Vorakull Skipper how we fight them
20/07/2010 01:06:39 Vorakull Skipper we became a sum of strong individuals united by a superior agent which doesnt permit us to indulge into human weakness
20/07/2010 01:06:50 Vorakull Skipper Im mixing here fiction and reality, as you can notice
20/07/2010 01:07:06 Vorakull Skipper but I think I may use this you make me explain in the story
20/07/2010 01:07:08 Skipper Vorakull well atleast it makes a clearer picture
20/07/2010 01:07:09 Vorakull Skipper what do you think?
20/07/2010 01:07:38 Skipper Vorakull so the people I consider "jackals" in school are actually zombies.
20/07/2010 01:07:58 Skipper Vorakull amazing, isnt it?
20/07/2010 01:08:02 Vorakull Skipper as long as they cant disattach from the need to be part of a group they are
20/07/2010 01:08:13 Vorakull Skipper they need to feel the belong
20/07/2010 01:08:27 Skipper Vorakull well let's just say they stop being themselves, when they are not in their group
20/07/2010 01:08:44 Vorakull Skipper no
20/07/2010 01:08:50 Vorakull Skipper its the other way around
20/07/2010 01:09:11 Vorakull Skipper they only are turly themselves when they are not reunited as a group
20/07/2010 01:09:32 Vorakull Skipper thats why you must accept your loneliness, not with resignation nor resentment but with dignity
20/07/2010 01:10:03 Vorakull Skipper "Poor he who depends on others to find its pleasure"
20/07/2010 01:10:12 Skipper Vorakull hey, your right. It makes total sense, that individuality is born out of loneliness
20/07/2010 01:10:26 Vorakull Skipper you are closing it in your head
20/07/2010 01:10:28 Vorakull Skipper good
20/07/2010 01:10:35 Vorakull Skipper it made a circle
20/07/2010 01:10:40 Vorakull Skipper in your mind
20/07/2010 01:11:10 Skipper Vorakull but one thing is still bothering me
20/07/2010 01:11:16 Vorakull Skipper tell me
20/07/2010 01:12:01 Skipper Vorakull I came back from a camp, where I met some awesome people, that were pretty much like me. And I just feel kinda bad without them, because it was like I had 30 copies of myself in one room
20/07/2010 01:12:14 Vorakull Skipper ha
20/07/2010 01:12:21 Vorakull Skipper ok, so?
20/07/2010 01:12:37 Skipper Vorakull I miss them
20/07/2010 01:12:47 Skipper Vorakull badl
20/07/2010 01:12:49 Skipper Vorakull *badly
20/07/2010 01:12:51 Vorakull Skipper why?
20/07/2010 01:13:11 Skipper Vorakull because, I kinda felt myself, as if I finally found someone to hang out with
20/07/2010 01:13:13 Vorakull Skipper is there anything about you that went with them?
20/07/2010 01:13:16 Vorakull Skipper in their ausence
20/07/2010 01:13:28 Skipper Vorakull yeah, pretty much
20/07/2010 01:13:29 Vorakull Skipper theres anything yours who is absent too?
20/07/2010 01:13:36 Vorakull Skipper really?
20/07/2010 01:13:40 Vorakull Skipper be honest, not romantic
20/07/2010 01:14:01 Skipper Vorakull well let's just say, we all accepted and respected each other
20/07/2010 01:14:09 Vorakull Skipper dont rely on energy created on the past
20/07/2010 01:14:23 Vorakull Skipper because that cripples yo from creating new energy in the present
20/07/2010 01:14:25 Skipper Vorakull for who we are, and we just loved each other for being ourselves
20/07/2010 01:14:34 Vorakull Skipper no thats a lie
20/07/2010 01:14:45 Skipper Vorakull another illusion of being a group?
20/07/2010 01:14:50 Vorakull Skipper think about it
20/07/2010 01:15:00 Vorakull Skipper how can you tell me
20/07/2010 01:15:06 Vorakull Skipper you loved each other
20/07/2010 01:15:10 Vorakull Skipper and respected each other
20/07/2010 01:15:24 Vorakull Skipper if you cant feel those things for yourself when you are alone?
20/07/2010 01:15:30 Vorakull Skipper hows that even possible?
20/07/2010 01:15:39 Vorakull Skipper you are giving away something you dont have?
20/07/2010 01:15:49 Vorakull Skipper you ae receiving something they dont have?
20/07/2010 01:16:08 Skipper Vorakull wait, so your asking me how I cant respect and love myself, but at the same time respect and love someone else?
20/07/2010 01:16:16 Vorakull Skipper no
20/07/2010 01:16:23 Vorakull Skipper how can you miss them
20/07/2010 01:16:31 Vorakull Skipper if what you felt whas yours
20/07/2010 01:16:35 Vorakull Skipper it born inside you
20/07/2010 01:16:39 Vorakull Skipper and is still there
20/07/2010 01:16:57 Vorakull Skipper how can you love and respect others with honesty
20/07/2010 01:17:09 Skipper Vorakull if I'm not honest with myself?
20/07/2010 01:17:17 Vorakull Skipper if you arent in perfect terms with yourself?
20/07/2010 01:17:48 Vorakull Skipper you can give anything to others you dont give to yourselv firsthand
20/07/2010 01:17:52 Vorakull Skipper cant*
20/07/2010 01:18:29 Skipper Vorakull I dont really know
20/07/2010 01:18:36 Vorakull Skipper wait
20/07/2010 01:18:37 Skipper Vorakull guess there's still a lot to learn

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